Tuesday, October 19, 2010
on a scale of one to ten, it's a 4 or a 5. the feeling doesn't radiate anywhere and i don't know how to describe it today. nothing makes it feel better or worse & it just started this morning- there i was just a regular ol' would-be peacock feeling insatiable and eating everything when some guy with forceps had the audacity to be this tediously happy person- he wasn't warm at all and certainly had no charisma. you see, doc, it's just that i know a charmless smile when i see one & my god, did he have one...you would have felt angry just looking at him too, but that's all that happened this morning- it wasn't unusual for this place- i know you wanna call it a trigger doc, but it doesn't fit. yes it was the worstttttt being stuck in a charmless moment and all, but it's so expected, after all. charmless with an element of surprise- well that's the worstttt.